Back in elementary school, I was in love with the one boy, and no one could tell me otherwise! and as I got older, the feelings didn't change much, I was still in love. mind you, we never went out, never were anything more than friends, and the most we ever did was hug (and I can still count on one hand how many times thats happened...), but back in elementary, we were best friends. Every time I saw him, or even a picture, it was like my heart stopped beating...and I was literally breathless.
Today, I was on Facebook and happened to cross a profile of someone I went to high school with, and her profile picture was her and this guy.....at first I was like "Really?" but that was it. I think it was more of a reason that I can't stand that girl and he can do better...a lot better. But there were no butterflies, I wasn't breathless, it was nothing. It took 12 years to feel like this, and it kinda scares me! lol. and for the record, this isnt the first time I've seen him with a girlfriend or anything like that...
Do I still love him? of course, we were such great friends when we were younger and I probably always will. He's like very distant family to me. But I guess the "I want us to live happily ever after" thing is gone? I gave up hoping it would ever happen a long time ago, but it was always the feelings came fluttering back every time I saw him.
12 years later, I don't know if I can say I'm over him...but I think I am making excellent progress. Even though for the past few years we only see/talk about once a year...and its always some random meeting so that might of helped, but even when I saw him in April 2010, all the feelings came back. Maybe, I'm just growing up....
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