Is my life perfect? HA Far from! But right now I can't complain much! I'm working again, and was even able to get caught up on all bills from the summer, in only two weeks! The choices I made at the beginning of summer to get some people out of my life has been good. and I've gotten a better idea of who I can really count on. Although one person is back and working out fine, and I will actually be working for her, watching her daughters 3 days a week while she is in school for 10 weeks. and I will be using this money from her for plane tickets to Nebraska!
I am probably like 1/5 who would be excited about going there. But I cannot wait! Some family, including my step-dad, my mom, her sister, and my cousin are going to be heading to vegas next month. As much as I would LOVE to go back, I a)dont have the funds $500 just for air and hotel, so that wouldnt even include spending money! and b) it would only be two members of my family. So I came up with a better idea, I can go back to Nebraska for Christmas and I can see most of my family members and I haven't had a Christmas out there in almost 9 years I think. Plus I have been looking at the price of tickets and its under $400 and still dropping! So right now, that is the main thing I'm excited about!
Beyond that, we got a new kitten, named cosmos who seems to be dumber than a box of rocks, but he is rather entertaining when hyped up. He is definitely no Heidi! but then again, no cat will ever come close.
Monday, September 5, 2011
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Letting the artistic side out
So, I recently created a logo for my friend's small business, using Photoshop. After working on that I realized how much I've missed photoshop! I started working with photoshop during Junior year of High School, when I was in yearbook (I needed a break from working on pages all the time) and actually did pretty well with those, Nothing too big, usually just changing the background a little, adding some detail. I didn't make like stuff coming out of peoples eyes or anything though, I'm not that skilled...YET!
So tonight, I got bored and started looking at pictures, I thought about making my own picture, which I've done once or twice....I attempted to make a persona for Firefox...yeah I gave up on that quickly....Then I started looking through pictures on the computer and found a couple of my niece, very simple stuff tweeking the photo, changing the hues, making it black and white, adding some text, but I love how they turned out! It felt so good to let some of the creativity out. It really made me wish that I had more pictures to mess with...I found a quote I would I love to put on a pic, but getting the picture is another thing...I'm gonna have to work on that now. Even just going to the waterfront or Mt. Rainier and getting some pretty shots would be perfect...but for now...below is my current photoshop portfolio :)
I believe this was my very first photoshop, I couldnt figuring out how to change the wings. and my Heidi-Kitty (R.I.P.)
This started as a picture taken out in the school hallway. One of my options for my yearbook editor picture
This is the exact same picture, just with a different background.
Fireworks!
I needed a good evil picture
This is my niece when she was about 18 months I think. This is when I learned not to just give a baby yogurt. the top says "Nothing comes between a baby and her yogurt" and is still my favorite picture of her!
I think this one kinda speaks for its self...I needed another dark one
This is my another niece at about 3 weeks. She was a little christmas angel
In a star!
In a star again! but this time its red!
This is my niece again (the one from the yogurt picture) these are the ones I did tonight.
So tonight, I got bored and started looking at pictures, I thought about making my own picture, which I've done once or twice....I attempted to make a persona for Firefox...yeah I gave up on that quickly....Then I started looking through pictures on the computer and found a couple of my niece, very simple stuff tweeking the photo, changing the hues, making it black and white, adding some text, but I love how they turned out! It felt so good to let some of the creativity out. It really made me wish that I had more pictures to mess with...I found a quote I would I love to put on a pic, but getting the picture is another thing...I'm gonna have to work on that now. Even just going to the waterfront or Mt. Rainier and getting some pretty shots would be perfect...but for now...below is my current photoshop portfolio :)
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Time to make some changes
This week, I had to say good bye to my kitty of 15 years. It was probably the hardest and most emotional time of my life so far.
This week, and a little of the week before, I realized the people I have for friends. And I realized a couple of my friends suck as friends. It could just be me being over emotional, it's totally a possibility.
One "friend" I have known forever, you'd think she would be there for me, even in the slightest....nope, I got a "damn I'm sorry" text and that was it....The week before we were making plans to go to the movies....getting pretty much everything planned out and then she told me she couldn't because she was having a "pot party"...as in everyone is getting high. I have never touched weed, never had the desire to smoke or anything. and lately all she does is smoke....as i stated before I might just be over emotional or something....but its pretty sad when someone you've been best friends with since elementary school puts you on the back burner to weed. Every conversation we have at least 10 times the phrase "I was so high...." comes out. I am getting sick of it! So back to the movie thing...tickets would have been taken care of it would have cost her $5 for gas (and anything else she wanted to buy, candy and what-not), then I find out today she went to the movies anyways...now how am I supposed to take that? Because I'm kinda insulted.
Another "friend" I found out has lied to me about almost everything going on in her life. Why she did something, stopped doing this, why that's there, I know its confusing...but we're supposed to be best friends, and she can't be honest with me, and I have to find all this shit out from another friend. And it took this other friend for me to realize that I've just been used by her....no this isn't a brainwashing thing or whatever, she simply stated how it is between them and I happen to realize some similarities. Call me when you need a sitter, that's fine, you wouldn't be the only one to do that, but ONLY calling when you need a sitter, you fall into a different category there. I do have other friends who I would probably not even be friends with now if it weren't for the kids, but even after she comes home, and I'm "off the clock" we hang out, we joke around, I can even call her husband a friend now. I can't do that with the "friend's" husband.
So, I'm going to be making some changes, and kicking some people who I don't want or need in my life. and I'm going to replace them with people who I can talk to, I can hang out with, and I enjoy being around. I'm sad that I have to make these decisions....but I've had to before, I have to pick people who are good for my life (I know it sounds selfish, but I don't have anyone else I have to worry about right now, kids, boyfriend/husband, nothing like that). Now I look back at the people I kicked out before...and I'm happy, I hear about how shitty their life is right now and it makes me wonder if I would have been acting more like them, from hanging out with them so much...cause I started too. My life is mine....I don't want to have people in it who are going to bring me down, emotionally or mentally, it doesn't matter. I'm done with it.
This week, and a little of the week before, I realized the people I have for friends. And I realized a couple of my friends suck as friends. It could just be me being over emotional, it's totally a possibility.
One "friend" I have known forever, you'd think she would be there for me, even in the slightest....nope, I got a "damn I'm sorry" text and that was it....The week before we were making plans to go to the movies....getting pretty much everything planned out and then she told me she couldn't because she was having a "pot party"...as in everyone is getting high. I have never touched weed, never had the desire to smoke or anything. and lately all she does is smoke....as i stated before I might just be over emotional or something....but its pretty sad when someone you've been best friends with since elementary school puts you on the back burner to weed. Every conversation we have at least 10 times the phrase "I was so high...." comes out. I am getting sick of it! So back to the movie thing...tickets would have been taken care of it would have cost her $5 for gas (and anything else she wanted to buy, candy and what-not), then I find out today she went to the movies anyways...now how am I supposed to take that? Because I'm kinda insulted.
Another "friend" I found out has lied to me about almost everything going on in her life. Why she did something, stopped doing this, why that's there, I know its confusing...but we're supposed to be best friends, and she can't be honest with me, and I have to find all this shit out from another friend. And it took this other friend for me to realize that I've just been used by her....no this isn't a brainwashing thing or whatever, she simply stated how it is between them and I happen to realize some similarities. Call me when you need a sitter, that's fine, you wouldn't be the only one to do that, but ONLY calling when you need a sitter, you fall into a different category there. I do have other friends who I would probably not even be friends with now if it weren't for the kids, but even after she comes home, and I'm "off the clock" we hang out, we joke around, I can even call her husband a friend now. I can't do that with the "friend's" husband.
So, I'm going to be making some changes, and kicking some people who I don't want or need in my life. and I'm going to replace them with people who I can talk to, I can hang out with, and I enjoy being around. I'm sad that I have to make these decisions....but I've had to before, I have to pick people who are good for my life (I know it sounds selfish, but I don't have anyone else I have to worry about right now, kids, boyfriend/husband, nothing like that). Now I look back at the people I kicked out before...and I'm happy, I hear about how shitty their life is right now and it makes me wonder if I would have been acting more like them, from hanging out with them so much...cause I started too. My life is mine....I don't want to have people in it who are going to bring me down, emotionally or mentally, it doesn't matter. I'm done with it.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Wow how things can change!
Back in elementary school, I was in love with the one boy, and no one could tell me otherwise! and as I got older, the feelings didn't change much, I was still in love. mind you, we never went out, never were anything more than friends, and the most we ever did was hug (and I can still count on one hand how many times thats happened...), but back in elementary, we were best friends. Every time I saw him, or even a picture, it was like my heart stopped beating...and I was literally breathless.
Today, I was on Facebook and happened to cross a profile of someone I went to high school with, and her profile picture was her and this guy.....at first I was like "Really?" but that was it. I think it was more of a reason that I can't stand that girl and he can do better...a lot better. But there were no butterflies, I wasn't breathless, it was nothing. It took 12 years to feel like this, and it kinda scares me! lol. and for the record, this isnt the first time I've seen him with a girlfriend or anything like that...
Do I still love him? of course, we were such great friends when we were younger and I probably always will. He's like very distant family to me. But I guess the "I want us to live happily ever after" thing is gone? I gave up hoping it would ever happen a long time ago, but it was always the feelings came fluttering back every time I saw him.
12 years later, I don't know if I can say I'm over him...but I think I am making excellent progress. Even though for the past few years we only see/talk about once a year...and its always some random meeting so that might of helped, but even when I saw him in April 2010, all the feelings came back. Maybe, I'm just growing up....
Today, I was on Facebook and happened to cross a profile of someone I went to high school with, and her profile picture was her and this guy.....at first I was like "Really?" but that was it. I think it was more of a reason that I can't stand that girl and he can do better...a lot better. But there were no butterflies, I wasn't breathless, it was nothing. It took 12 years to feel like this, and it kinda scares me! lol. and for the record, this isnt the first time I've seen him with a girlfriend or anything like that...
Do I still love him? of course, we were such great friends when we were younger and I probably always will. He's like very distant family to me. But I guess the "I want us to live happily ever after" thing is gone? I gave up hoping it would ever happen a long time ago, but it was always the feelings came fluttering back every time I saw him.
12 years later, I don't know if I can say I'm over him...but I think I am making excellent progress. Even though for the past few years we only see/talk about once a year...and its always some random meeting so that might of helped, but even when I saw him in April 2010, all the feelings came back. Maybe, I'm just growing up....
Saturday, May 28, 2011
I wanna be a kid again!
I miss being a kid! Back to the days when money didn't mean anything!
As of June 17th, I will not have a job until either the end of August or beginning of September (I'm not sure about the day they come home). So I've been spending so much time looking for a job and doing what I can to save money. Luckily, I currently only have 3 bills to pay: My cell, insurance, and credit card. along with food and gas, I somehow found a way to make it possibly work, including lowing my cell phone from roughly $100 to $50. Paying off my credit card (which is about $150 left) should help as well. and Making sure I buy stuff that last longer, not like a box of macaroni, but eggs and tortillas, cheese, that can last me forever! Trying to do more at home, plenty of projects I can do, and want to do, so I don't waste the gas
See why I said I miss being a kid? Being completely unaware of all this stuff we had to do. and So many kids are in a hurry to grow up. There's not much more to look forward to. They think they hope for the freedom, but what freedom? We still answer to our boss. Right now, since I'm not a parent I get the chance to sit back and watch tv and play on the computer, but I don't see my friends, who are parents, have much down time, except for after bed time or nap time. They hate school so much, I miss it! I miss the memories. They just don't want to get up in the morning...and jobs are much better? Maybe when they first start out...working fast food or something....but not much longer.
As of June 17th, I will not have a job until either the end of August or beginning of September (I'm not sure about the day they come home). So I've been spending so much time looking for a job and doing what I can to save money. Luckily, I currently only have 3 bills to pay: My cell, insurance, and credit card. along with food and gas, I somehow found a way to make it possibly work, including lowing my cell phone from roughly $100 to $50. Paying off my credit card (which is about $150 left) should help as well. and Making sure I buy stuff that last longer, not like a box of macaroni, but eggs and tortillas, cheese, that can last me forever! Trying to do more at home, plenty of projects I can do, and want to do, so I don't waste the gas
See why I said I miss being a kid? Being completely unaware of all this stuff we had to do. and So many kids are in a hurry to grow up. There's not much more to look forward to. They think they hope for the freedom, but what freedom? We still answer to our boss. Right now, since I'm not a parent I get the chance to sit back and watch tv and play on the computer, but I don't see my friends, who are parents, have much down time, except for after bed time or nap time. They hate school so much, I miss it! I miss the memories. They just don't want to get up in the morning...and jobs are much better? Maybe when they first start out...working fast food or something....but not much longer.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
My obsessions.....and how they got started
There are three main things people see anywhere (typically the store) and instantly think "KYLIE!"
The longest one in the Pez collection, back when I was 7 (back in 1996), my parents got divorced and my dad moved in with some friends who were somewhat collecting (I really have absolutely no idea the back story with them...I just remember they kept them in gallon size Ziplock bags). My dad started getting interested in them, and buying them, and me (being that daddy's girl that I was) had to have some too.
Why pez? They're cheap, you can find them at the Dollar Tree, I bought one at Safeway the other day for $1.99. There is such a variety of them, most people think it's only the little plastic ones, there are giant ones, 3 ft tall and they talk, shirts, clocks, "magic pez", survival pez, motorized pez, key rings, money clips, ornaments, video games, dog treat dispensers, watches, lip balm, whistles, the list could go on forever! Granted not all of them have candy, a shirt with candy? it doesn't exactly work, but they do all of the pez name, from what I mentioned above, only the shirt, clock (at least the one we have), money clip, ornaments, dog treat, and lip balm don't come with candy, although the dog treat dispenser comes with its own treats. Even if you do only stick to the little original ones, there's a variety there too, from where I'm sitting right now, I see Snow White, Tinkerbell, Disney Princesses, Toy Story, Lion King, Wall-E, Mulan, Thomas the Tank Engine. I know I have tons of holiday, Garfield, super heroes, star wars, star trek, looney toons, Shrek, TONS of Disney. I used to get them from people all the time, but now I have so many, people are afraid too. I'm not even sure how many I have anymore, if I had to guess by now, between 4-500. As of January 2010 I had 407, I know I have bought a lot more since then, so closer to 500. If I decide later on down the road I want to get rid of them, I can sell them. Pez only distribute ones for so long, some longer than others some I have can be worth $50, most are probably only worth $1 or $2. I didn't start collecting them for the money, I started collecting because I wanted to be like my dad, and I thought they were the coolest things ever.
Another collect is my star collection. I love stars, I have for years, I have no idea how it started or even when. I have so much random star stuff, I have candle holders, plates, cups, tattoos, stars painted on my walls, shirts, used to have a pair of jeans, a little table, blankets, lights (string lights, a lamp, and a hanging light, well known as a fuego star) a hanging star, robe, jewelry box, jewelry, a star made out of barbed wire, I even have a star in the sky (My brother gave it to me as a Christmas present back in 2003) I have tons of things with stars and some of the most random stuff.
My third and probably most well known collection is the Johnny Depp collection. When I was working at Dairy Queen, I met my best friend, and one night I gave her a ride home, she asked if I wanted to come in and watch a movie. Eh, why not, not like I had anything better to do. She told me to pick a movie and I found Finding Neverland, I grabbed it and showed it to her telling her "This is one sexy man!" and she said "Yes he is! Is that what you want to watch?" I said sure, I had no idea what I was going to pick. So, we watched it, the next week, same thing, I drove her home, she asked if I wanted to watch a movie...........This time I picked Pirates of the Caribbean 3, and told her "Might as well stick with last week" and after that we started watching a different Johnny Depp movie every week, the only ones we didn't watch were the ones we had already seen, the other Pirates, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, mostly the newer ones. The entire time we had our Johnny Depp night, she was pregnant so by the time December rolled around and she had her daughter we had seen pretty much every movie. After that I wanted to own them all, I don't have all of them yet, but I do have most, along with other random items, I have a Johnny Depp pez, of course, Puzzle, Purse, Key ring, T-shirt, a frisbee....
Those are my main collections, they are what make me...ME!
The longest one in the Pez collection, back when I was 7 (back in 1996), my parents got divorced and my dad moved in with some friends who were somewhat collecting (I really have absolutely no idea the back story with them...I just remember they kept them in gallon size Ziplock bags). My dad started getting interested in them, and buying them, and me (being that daddy's girl that I was) had to have some too.
Why pez? They're cheap, you can find them at the Dollar Tree, I bought one at Safeway the other day for $1.99. There is such a variety of them, most people think it's only the little plastic ones, there are giant ones, 3 ft tall and they talk, shirts, clocks, "magic pez", survival pez, motorized pez, key rings, money clips, ornaments, video games, dog treat dispensers, watches, lip balm, whistles, the list could go on forever! Granted not all of them have candy, a shirt with candy? it doesn't exactly work, but they do all of the pez name, from what I mentioned above, only the shirt, clock (at least the one we have), money clip, ornaments, dog treat, and lip balm don't come with candy, although the dog treat dispenser comes with its own treats. Even if you do only stick to the little original ones, there's a variety there too, from where I'm sitting right now, I see Snow White, Tinkerbell, Disney Princesses, Toy Story, Lion King, Wall-E, Mulan, Thomas the Tank Engine. I know I have tons of holiday, Garfield, super heroes, star wars, star trek, looney toons, Shrek, TONS of Disney. I used to get them from people all the time, but now I have so many, people are afraid too. I'm not even sure how many I have anymore, if I had to guess by now, between 4-500. As of January 2010 I had 407, I know I have bought a lot more since then, so closer to 500. If I decide later on down the road I want to get rid of them, I can sell them. Pez only distribute ones for so long, some longer than others some I have can be worth $50, most are probably only worth $1 or $2. I didn't start collecting them for the money, I started collecting because I wanted to be like my dad, and I thought they were the coolest things ever.
Another collect is my star collection. I love stars, I have for years, I have no idea how it started or even when. I have so much random star stuff, I have candle holders, plates, cups, tattoos, stars painted on my walls, shirts, used to have a pair of jeans, a little table, blankets, lights (string lights, a lamp, and a hanging light, well known as a fuego star) a hanging star, robe, jewelry box, jewelry, a star made out of barbed wire, I even have a star in the sky (My brother gave it to me as a Christmas present back in 2003) I have tons of things with stars and some of the most random stuff.
My third and probably most well known collection is the Johnny Depp collection. When I was working at Dairy Queen, I met my best friend, and one night I gave her a ride home, she asked if I wanted to come in and watch a movie. Eh, why not, not like I had anything better to do. She told me to pick a movie and I found Finding Neverland, I grabbed it and showed it to her telling her "This is one sexy man!" and she said "Yes he is! Is that what you want to watch?" I said sure, I had no idea what I was going to pick. So, we watched it, the next week, same thing, I drove her home, she asked if I wanted to watch a movie...........This time I picked Pirates of the Caribbean 3, and told her "Might as well stick with last week" and after that we started watching a different Johnny Depp movie every week, the only ones we didn't watch were the ones we had already seen, the other Pirates, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, mostly the newer ones. The entire time we had our Johnny Depp night, she was pregnant so by the time December rolled around and she had her daughter we had seen pretty much every movie. After that I wanted to own them all, I don't have all of them yet, but I do have most, along with other random items, I have a Johnny Depp pez, of course, Puzzle, Purse, Key ring, T-shirt, a frisbee....
Those are my main collections, they are what make me...ME!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
It really is the little things...
Today, I realized how much the little things can make a difference...
After work, I went to babysit, like I do every Thursday, for my 3 nephews, 1 niece and two other children. Today, it was only my 5 yr old niece and the two other (who are 2 and a baby). With it being Mothers Day on Sunday, me and my niece started making a present for her mom.
While we were making it she asked me "Kylie, are you a mother?"
"No, I'm just a babysitter"
"Oh, so you take care of babies.....kinda?"
"Yep, that's how I got started taking care of you"
Then a few minutes later, after asking me if she could make a card to go with the present, she randomly stopped and told me "Kylie, I'm going to make you a Mother's Day card, just because I love you." Then later, she was coloring and I was cleaning up and she came up to me and handed me this little green folded up piece of paper and told me "Here you go, make sure you don't open it until Sunday"
So today, at the age of 22, with no kids to speak of (other than my 4 nieces and 5 nephews) I got my first Mothers Day card. It's just a little folded up piece of paper she scribbled in and wrote her name on the back, I get tons of those from all the kids, but the story behind it and how she told me, it was just the innocence of a 5 year old. That card I will be sure to keep for as long as I possibly can.
Later tonight, I was working on their computer, while all of them were eating dinner, and all of a sudden my 3 yr old, non verbal, nephew started yelling something then his mom yells out "Kylie, he's calling you!" and it clicked in that he really was, even though it came out as "ca-ca" it really was to me.
To most people, hearing a 3 year old say their name is nothing new...but when you think back to a one year old saying their name, it means something more. But after not really hearing a child talk for 2 years, other than a few words, it means so much. It's such a little thing but after being involved with a family w/ 4 kids since the oldest was 14 months, before there were any other kids, I have started to realized all the small things they do, the older ones walking, hearing their first words, helping them learn something new.
You usually hear parents talking about the milestones with kids. Rarely do you hear about the aunt/babysitter talking but spending so much time with them has made me realize all the little things. My oldest niece is almost done with kindergarten and reading now. Another is getting ready to go into kindergarten. One is actually playing with me, when she used to only cry when I was around, and she remembers me when she sees me. And the youngest is working on walking. I remember when half of them weren't walking. And with my nephews, the oldest, due to some unforeseen events, I'm just now able to start a relationship with him. One has started preschool and is working on speaking, and signing and communicating. One is becoming more independent and talking more. One is working on being the first 2 yr old chef ever. and the youngest, today alone discovered his tongue, and lower lip (he's only a couple months old).
When it comes to kids they really do help you to realize all the little things. The smallest thing can be a moment that touches you, even though to them, it's just another day.
After work, I went to babysit, like I do every Thursday, for my 3 nephews, 1 niece and two other children. Today, it was only my 5 yr old niece and the two other (who are 2 and a baby). With it being Mothers Day on Sunday, me and my niece started making a present for her mom.
While we were making it she asked me "Kylie, are you a mother?"
"No, I'm just a babysitter"
"Oh, so you take care of babies.....kinda?"
"Yep, that's how I got started taking care of you"
Then a few minutes later, after asking me if she could make a card to go with the present, she randomly stopped and told me "Kylie, I'm going to make you a Mother's Day card, just because I love you." Then later, she was coloring and I was cleaning up and she came up to me and handed me this little green folded up piece of paper and told me "Here you go, make sure you don't open it until Sunday"
So today, at the age of 22, with no kids to speak of (other than my 4 nieces and 5 nephews) I got my first Mothers Day card. It's just a little folded up piece of paper she scribbled in and wrote her name on the back, I get tons of those from all the kids, but the story behind it and how she told me, it was just the innocence of a 5 year old. That card I will be sure to keep for as long as I possibly can.
Later tonight, I was working on their computer, while all of them were eating dinner, and all of a sudden my 3 yr old, non verbal, nephew started yelling something then his mom yells out "Kylie, he's calling you!" and it clicked in that he really was, even though it came out as "ca-ca" it really was to me.
To most people, hearing a 3 year old say their name is nothing new...but when you think back to a one year old saying their name, it means something more. But after not really hearing a child talk for 2 years, other than a few words, it means so much. It's such a little thing but after being involved with a family w/ 4 kids since the oldest was 14 months, before there were any other kids, I have started to realized all the small things they do, the older ones walking, hearing their first words, helping them learn something new.
You usually hear parents talking about the milestones with kids. Rarely do you hear about the aunt/babysitter talking but spending so much time with them has made me realize all the little things. My oldest niece is almost done with kindergarten and reading now. Another is getting ready to go into kindergarten. One is actually playing with me, when she used to only cry when I was around, and she remembers me when she sees me. And the youngest is working on walking. I remember when half of them weren't walking. And with my nephews, the oldest, due to some unforeseen events, I'm just now able to start a relationship with him. One has started preschool and is working on speaking, and signing and communicating. One is becoming more independent and talking more. One is working on being the first 2 yr old chef ever. and the youngest, today alone discovered his tongue, and lower lip (he's only a couple months old).
When it comes to kids they really do help you to realize all the little things. The smallest thing can be a moment that touches you, even though to them, it's just another day.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Did I ask your opinion?
Two things I CANNOT stand: 1)People hiding behind anonymous
2)People putting words in other peoples mouths.
A blog is a persons thoughts, if there is a question at the end, people should feel free and comment/answer it.
The exact definition, according to Dictionary.com: a web site containing the writer's or group of writers' own experiences, observations, opinions, etc., and often having images and links to other Web sites.
If you don't like something someone posts, then don't read it. It's very simple. If something they say upsets you, then tell them, fine, don't hide behind "anonymous" be up front and don't be a wuss.
I'm sure this is very confusing right now...another blogger, posted a blog, that mentioned me and a few others, not by name just as a group and someone had posted a comment, hiding behind anonymous, saying that the OP had just pissed off the entire group, we believe we know who it was that posted the comment (NOT a member of the group).
Of course it upset it OP, but it also upset me, this person hardly knows anyone in the group (assuming we're right about who it is), only talks to one of them regularly, at least I believe, yet they believe they can talk for us?
I was not pissed off when I read the blog. I never once thought "They just insulted me!" Because they didn't, I know them well enough to understand exactly what was meant.
Nobody asked the commenter's opinion, and once again, if its who we think it is, WE DON'T CARE!
Everyone has an opinion, I get that, if you have an opinion, embrace it, don't hide it or who you are.
If you do comment, thats great, but you do not put words it others mouth. saying OP pissed us off, they had no right to do so. If they are a member of the group, then they should have said "This pissed me off" fine, not us. Unless you know for a fact, you don't assume.
Not saying I dislike comments, I embrace others opinions and views, but be honest about it and who you are.
2)People putting words in other peoples mouths.
A blog is a persons thoughts, if there is a question at the end, people should feel free and comment/answer it.
The exact definition, according to Dictionary.com: a web site containing the writer's or group of writers' own experiences, observations, opinions, etc., and often having images and links to other Web sites.
If you don't like something someone posts, then don't read it. It's very simple. If something they say upsets you, then tell them, fine, don't hide behind "anonymous" be up front and don't be a wuss.
I'm sure this is very confusing right now...another blogger, posted a blog, that mentioned me and a few others, not by name just as a group and someone had posted a comment, hiding behind anonymous, saying that the OP had just pissed off the entire group, we believe we know who it was that posted the comment (NOT a member of the group).
Of course it upset it OP, but it also upset me, this person hardly knows anyone in the group (assuming we're right about who it is), only talks to one of them regularly, at least I believe, yet they believe they can talk for us?
I was not pissed off when I read the blog. I never once thought "They just insulted me!" Because they didn't, I know them well enough to understand exactly what was meant.
Nobody asked the commenter's opinion, and once again, if its who we think it is, WE DON'T CARE!
Everyone has an opinion, I get that, if you have an opinion, embrace it, don't hide it or who you are.
If you do comment, thats great, but you do not put words it others mouth. saying OP pissed us off, they had no right to do so. If they are a member of the group, then they should have said "This pissed me off" fine, not us. Unless you know for a fact, you don't assume.
Not saying I dislike comments, I embrace others opinions and views, but be honest about it and who you are.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
I need a life....away from kids
Its a beautiful weekend, and I've been inside all weekend...I've sat inside all weekend. For two main reasons a) it cost way too much money to do anything, the second the car turns on gas is being used... b)No one to hang out with....I'm not the kind of person to just call up someone and say hey let's go out. and I don't have that many people I can do that with....or that can just pick up and leave at the drop of a hat. I have basically 5 friends, that I actually see and hang out with. 3 of them are married and have kids, young kids so to hang out a babysitter is needed (which is usually me) or talking the husbands into them watching the kids or finding something to do with all the kids. Don't get me wrong, I love my nieces and nephews I have 4 of one and 5 of the other. But I'm always around kids, I work with kids, half the time if I do get to see a friend I'm babysitting, then may get to hang out for a little while. Granted if I didn't babysit, I would most likely hardly see my nieces and nephews. But between that and working with kids, almost everything I do is with kids. It wasn't until recently I realized how much I miss working at DQ. I miss being around adults....people who I can talk about recent stuff about....who aren't so gullible (I know a kid who believes writing on your hand will turn your liver blue...) I want to be more around people who I can show my tattoos to and not have to worry about what will their parents think because they saw these, or talk about my weekend and not have to censor it. and make it so I can say "I went to a bar with some friends".
Babysitting, I have no problem with, and I think I would be a lot happier if I didn't work with kids. and it's not even working with kids...its only working with kids. If I worked at Chuck E. Cheese, I would be around kids but I would still have adults around. Every day, I show up to work, me and their dad exchange causalities, "how are you? fine, you? fine" blah blah blah, then he says goodbye and thats. from 6:15-9. I'm around preteens. Then I either go to babysit (more kids), or come home (alone), Then, if I'm not babysitting I go back, at 2:30-4:30 again preteens, again causalities with dad, go home, and spend the rest of the night alone. I just miss having adults to talk to, away from kids.
Babysitting, I have no problem with, and I think I would be a lot happier if I didn't work with kids. and it's not even working with kids...its only working with kids. If I worked at Chuck E. Cheese, I would be around kids but I would still have adults around. Every day, I show up to work, me and their dad exchange causalities, "how are you? fine, you? fine" blah blah blah, then he says goodbye and thats. from 6:15-9. I'm around preteens. Then I either go to babysit (more kids), or come home (alone), Then, if I'm not babysitting I go back, at 2:30-4:30 again preteens, again causalities with dad, go home, and spend the rest of the night alone. I just miss having adults to talk to, away from kids.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Karma Tattoo
This will be my next tattoo! I cannot wait, but first I have to save up the $200 for it. Which I was told by Chris today (the one whose done my other two tats) that I would still leave with some money in my pocket. The only difference I want is the K and the A to connect at the the top so it will be like a circle and the whole "what goes around comes around." and I'm also not sure about the color....since I already have one blue and black tat (my nautical star on my shoulder) and I have one black and gray shaded (my pentacle/triple goddess on my arm) So, I'm not sure how I will do colors, I love red almost as much as I love blue but I don't know how it would look....so I am totally open to any input. For the record, I just want the letters, I could care less about the background.
The other thing I have to wait for, well don't have to but am waiting for is so I can donate blood. It sounds so weird, I know, but I haven't been in almost 2 years! Before I got the first tattoo, I was donating platelets, which you can do every two weeks, and I really really really miss it. I knew I would miss it a little bit, and I'm not even sure what exactly I miss so much. So, my first focus for my tattoo is donating blood, and I'm honestly not even sure I got this one....but I can say the day after it's been a year, I will be at CRBS (according to facebook it's June 17th, so June 18th I'll be there.) Which ironically enough, that is my last day working for my current family, so unless I have a new job by then, which I am definitely hoping for, I can make an appointment for the 18th, since with platelets you have to make an appointment, since the whole ordeal takes roughly 2 hours, they really can't have you just walk in....I might do red blood cells, but I can only do that once every 8 weeks. So my first and foremost focus will be donating blood, then saving up the money.
Will this be my last tattoo? Probably not, I have no idea what my next would be, but I said the same thing after my necklace, and once I saw this picture, I knew that was it. And I'm guessing it will be the same next time. Although I do have a (what I think) really cute idea for when I have kids...I've had several, one being their horoscope sign on my back and a trail stars going from it to the center of my back and in the center they all mix together (my nautical star would be one point) however, if I have more than 3 or 4, the idea would be screwed, and since my dad is a twin and his mother was insane enough to have three sets of twins, in 27 months (yes I know they were busy!) Theres a good chance. But the image would be like this, only the stars flipped with the biggest one in the corner. and the smaller ones leading to the center of my back
So for now, I am very excited for my karma tattoo, but more excited to just donate blood again.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Some gained and some lost
So this whole thing is supposed to be about karma in my daily life....and today I feel as though I earned some and believe I saw some lost.
So first the bad news or good news? I'm gonna start with the bad, because it happened first....I was on my way home from a babysitting job, and saw some kid spraying graffiti...the two cop cars in front of me saw it too. So they both pull over (one on each side) get out and both start walking towards him....the kid backed up and started walking towards one of them...just WALKING, not even speed walking, just walking towards one of them (granted I didn't hear any words, being that I was driving....) and the cop kicks him. and the kid was down on the ground. Now, when I saw "kid" i don't mean 13.....he was probably 18 or so, not saying it makes a difference. I don't know the rules when it comes to cops...but as far as I'm concerned a cop shouldn't be kicking someone for walking towards them, regardless of words spoken. If the kid were like running I could understand, they gotta do what they gotta do. But just for that, it was ridiculous. So, once again seeing as I don't know the rules or training or anything like that, I definitely feel as though that cop lost some MAJOR karma points.
Now for the good news: After the above incident, I stopped by 7-11 for some nachos and a Slurpee. While waiting in line, a man and I'm assuming his son, got behind me. After paying for my stuff and all that, I went out to my car, and started looking for a new song to play. Meanwhile, the man and little boy came out of the store and happened to be parked to the right of me....The man unlocked and opened his door, then opened the back door so the boy could get it and helped in buckle up and everything, all the while, he left his door wide open, making it so it wouldn't be smart leave. I started to think about what I could do....I could maneuver it so I could leave, I could honk, I could rev my engine (since I already started it), I could have rolled down my window and said something...All these things I could have done, but he was just a guy, taking his son out to get a treat (I remember going and doing that every Friday as a kid), and I had no where to be...yes I wanted to get home so I could eat but it wasn't a big deal....a minute or two, or even 5 wouldn't make two big a difference with the food....a little softer or melted but it still taste the same. So I waited, and it didn't take long...but all the things I could have done all those things...and seemed like a bitch. But I chose to be nice about it. I chose to do something to earn my karma points for the day.
As I've said before, it doesn't take much to gain those points....but it also doesn't take much to lose them. You are responsible for your actions...you just have to decided if you want to keep or lose those points.
"I'm a true believer in karma. You get what you give, whether it's bad or good."
So first the bad news or good news? I'm gonna start with the bad, because it happened first....I was on my way home from a babysitting job, and saw some kid spraying graffiti...the two cop cars in front of me saw it too. So they both pull over (one on each side) get out and both start walking towards him....the kid backed up and started walking towards one of them...just WALKING, not even speed walking, just walking towards one of them (granted I didn't hear any words, being that I was driving....) and the cop kicks him. and the kid was down on the ground. Now, when I saw "kid" i don't mean 13.....he was probably 18 or so, not saying it makes a difference. I don't know the rules when it comes to cops...but as far as I'm concerned a cop shouldn't be kicking someone for walking towards them, regardless of words spoken. If the kid were like running I could understand, they gotta do what they gotta do. But just for that, it was ridiculous. So, once again seeing as I don't know the rules or training or anything like that, I definitely feel as though that cop lost some MAJOR karma points.
Now for the good news: After the above incident, I stopped by 7-11 for some nachos and a Slurpee. While waiting in line, a man and I'm assuming his son, got behind me. After paying for my stuff and all that, I went out to my car, and started looking for a new song to play. Meanwhile, the man and little boy came out of the store and happened to be parked to the right of me....The man unlocked and opened his door, then opened the back door so the boy could get it and helped in buckle up and everything, all the while, he left his door wide open, making it so it wouldn't be smart leave. I started to think about what I could do....I could maneuver it so I could leave, I could honk, I could rev my engine (since I already started it), I could have rolled down my window and said something...All these things I could have done, but he was just a guy, taking his son out to get a treat (I remember going and doing that every Friday as a kid), and I had no where to be...yes I wanted to get home so I could eat but it wasn't a big deal....a minute or two, or even 5 wouldn't make two big a difference with the food....a little softer or melted but it still taste the same. So I waited, and it didn't take long...but all the things I could have done all those things...and seemed like a bitch. But I chose to be nice about it. I chose to do something to earn my karma points for the day.
As I've said before, it doesn't take much to gain those points....but it also doesn't take much to lose them. You are responsible for your actions...you just have to decided if you want to keep or lose those points.
"I'm a true believer in karma. You get what you give, whether it's bad or good."
Allowing others learn from their mistakes
Well, I think the title says it all. It works for parents, friends, whoever. Working with children, I see people all the time who don't want to let their children learn for themselves.
Think back to being younger...you learned not to touch the oven door, by touching it and learning its hot. Everyone always told you "don't touch! hot!" but those are just words...you don't know until you try.
You don't learn not to tailgate someone until the car in front of you slams on its brakes, either causing an accident or a hell of a adrenaline rush.
If you don't try it then you never know. Or, in this case, if you don't let them try they'll never know. You can give as much advice as you want, but if they want to badly enough, they will. After they do it, whatever it may be, they might understand why you don't do it. but it might take longer for them to. But eventually it will click.
In high school, you fail a test, and either get in trouble, or it progresses and they fail a class, and it may keep progressing to dropping out of school. Which at the time, to them it may not seem like a big deal, but years later when they look for a good job, with no diploma or GED now they have to go back to school, that they hated so much. Then they learn their mistake.
But if you don't let others try for themselves they won't know. Not with everything, but with most, it doesn't hurt to try.
An example with myself: I was also told be beyond careful with boiling milk....of course I would listen but not absorb it....so I though it would be fine to run to the bathroom really quickly. WAS I WRONG! and not only did it boil over, I am really bad at remembering to clean up after its cooled down and after I finished eating....so the next time I go to cook....well I learned milk can catch on fire....and I've learned to be much more careful and focus with milk.....I had to learn and experience it for myself.
So what does all this have to do with karma? I have absolutely no idea! if you can think of something, let me know! It's just a random rant I wanted to get out. :)
"I'm a true believer in karma. You get what you give, whether it's bad or good."
Think back to being younger...you learned not to touch the oven door, by touching it and learning its hot. Everyone always told you "don't touch! hot!" but those are just words...you don't know until you try.
You don't learn not to tailgate someone until the car in front of you slams on its brakes, either causing an accident or a hell of a adrenaline rush.
If you don't try it then you never know. Or, in this case, if you don't let them try they'll never know. You can give as much advice as you want, but if they want to badly enough, they will. After they do it, whatever it may be, they might understand why you don't do it. but it might take longer for them to. But eventually it will click.
In high school, you fail a test, and either get in trouble, or it progresses and they fail a class, and it may keep progressing to dropping out of school. Which at the time, to them it may not seem like a big deal, but years later when they look for a good job, with no diploma or GED now they have to go back to school, that they hated so much. Then they learn their mistake.
But if you don't let others try for themselves they won't know. Not with everything, but with most, it doesn't hurt to try.
An example with myself: I was also told be beyond careful with boiling milk....of course I would listen but not absorb it....so I though it would be fine to run to the bathroom really quickly. WAS I WRONG! and not only did it boil over, I am really bad at remembering to clean up after its cooled down and after I finished eating....so the next time I go to cook....well I learned milk can catch on fire....and I've learned to be much more careful and focus with milk.....I had to learn and experience it for myself.
So what does all this have to do with karma? I have absolutely no idea! if you can think of something, let me know! It's just a random rant I wanted to get out. :)
"I'm a true believer in karma. You get what you give, whether it's bad or good."
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Maybe Karma is my religion...
Most people live by "what can I do to make sure I get into heaven" I am not a religious person in the slightest, I do not believe there is a "god" nor believe I should follow what a book tells me to do. I'm not trying to start a debate, these are simply my thoughts.
Although, while I'm not religious, that doesn't mean I don't think I should have morals. I just live my life looking at tomorrow rather than after death. What can I do today that will make me be a happier person tomorrow?
I have chosen to live for myself, and not as others would like me live...I try to still remain respectful, I recently attended church for a friend's baptism, I folded my hand, closed my eyes and bowed my head, however in my head I came up with my own little thoughts or think of a random song. I sat silently and listened to what the people have to say, whether it be about the holy ghost or some one testifying, I still gave them the same attention I give everyone else. You don't ignore a child just because they think Santa is real, do you? or you don't refuse to talk to some one because they are a different political party then you. It is the same idea to me.
Just because we have different beliefs, doesn't mean we are different. Just because we have different beliefs doesn't mean we don't have the same morals. And I guess you could say I base my morals off the 10 commandments. I do honor my parents, I do not steal, I don't think I could say I love my neighbors but I do feel I tolerate them fairly well. I have no intention of ever killing anyone (I've learned karma handles it all for me). and I will never cheat on my boyfriend or husband. Half of the 10 commandments are how we should live every day.
The main difference between myself and someone who is religious is that others live to make god happy, to make it so god will allow them into heaven. As for myself, I live to make myself happy and to know when I'm on my death bed, I wont have any regrets. Am I saying my way of life is right? Of course not, no matter what, everyone person has to do what is right for them, and for their family.
Now what does all this have to do with karma? right? Well, from what I have gathered/witnessed, your religion, whatever it may be, is supposed to make a person fulfilled and happy, right? That's what karma is to me, I do something and gain those points, and help them. I get the most fulfilled feeling helping someone, most of that comes from donating blood or platelets, every time after I finish donating I think what is that blood or those platelets going to do/who are they going to help? While blood can go to anyone, as long as they are the same type. Platelets on the other hand, go to cancer patients, while I don't know all the details, they can help keep another person's life going for even a day. I also feel fulfilled helping someone with sign language, currently in my life, the only time I use it is with my nephews, I still feel fulfilled being able to communicate with them, not necessarily on a different level, but in a different way, I can help teach them new words. Every time I donate, or teach some new words to them, I know I gain some points. When it is time to cash in the points I know it will make me happy, while I might not realize the points have been cashed in at the time, once I do, I will be happy.
So to sum up: I do something (like donate blood) and gain points and I feel fulfilled and happy. Which back to the main point of this whole thing....is what others get from religion. So, I guess to me karma is my religion, but that doesn't mean I have to believe in a god.
"I'm a true believer in karma. You get what you give, whether it's bad or good."
Although, while I'm not religious, that doesn't mean I don't think I should have morals. I just live my life looking at tomorrow rather than after death. What can I do today that will make me be a happier person tomorrow?
I have chosen to live for myself, and not as others would like me live...I try to still remain respectful, I recently attended church for a friend's baptism, I folded my hand, closed my eyes and bowed my head, however in my head I came up with my own little thoughts or think of a random song. I sat silently and listened to what the people have to say, whether it be about the holy ghost or some one testifying, I still gave them the same attention I give everyone else. You don't ignore a child just because they think Santa is real, do you? or you don't refuse to talk to some one because they are a different political party then you. It is the same idea to me.
Just because we have different beliefs, doesn't mean we are different. Just because we have different beliefs doesn't mean we don't have the same morals. And I guess you could say I base my morals off the 10 commandments. I do honor my parents, I do not steal, I don't think I could say I love my neighbors but I do feel I tolerate them fairly well. I have no intention of ever killing anyone (I've learned karma handles it all for me). and I will never cheat on my boyfriend or husband. Half of the 10 commandments are how we should live every day.
The main difference between myself and someone who is religious is that others live to make god happy, to make it so god will allow them into heaven. As for myself, I live to make myself happy and to know when I'm on my death bed, I wont have any regrets. Am I saying my way of life is right? Of course not, no matter what, everyone person has to do what is right for them, and for their family.
Now what does all this have to do with karma? right? Well, from what I have gathered/witnessed, your religion, whatever it may be, is supposed to make a person fulfilled and happy, right? That's what karma is to me, I do something and gain those points, and help them. I get the most fulfilled feeling helping someone, most of that comes from donating blood or platelets, every time after I finish donating I think what is that blood or those platelets going to do/who are they going to help? While blood can go to anyone, as long as they are the same type. Platelets on the other hand, go to cancer patients, while I don't know all the details, they can help keep another person's life going for even a day. I also feel fulfilled helping someone with sign language, currently in my life, the only time I use it is with my nephews, I still feel fulfilled being able to communicate with them, not necessarily on a different level, but in a different way, I can help teach them new words. Every time I donate, or teach some new words to them, I know I gain some points. When it is time to cash in the points I know it will make me happy, while I might not realize the points have been cashed in at the time, once I do, I will be happy.
So to sum up: I do something (like donate blood) and gain points and I feel fulfilled and happy. Which back to the main point of this whole thing....is what others get from religion. So, I guess to me karma is my religion, but that doesn't mean I have to believe in a god.
"I'm a true believer in karma. You get what you give, whether it's bad or good."
Friday, April 22, 2011
A different outlook on life?
I'm not sure if that's the right title....but....it will work.
Random acts of kindness would also be a good one...but a bit too cliche.
I try to find the upside to everything. I'm a firm believer of "everything happens for a reason" and while it may take years to figure it out there is a reason.
example: my mom married my dad, in 1992 moved 2000 miles away from family then got divorced in '96, but because of moving out here...my mom met my now step dad and couldn't be happier. It took 14 years for them to get married, but if it hadn't been for my dad's new job and moving out here, she never would have met him. So as much as my mom hates my dad, aside from me and my brother (which I think she's only thankful for on the good days ;) ) it's because of him, she's happy now.
I am also a HUGE believer in karma, I even plan on getting "karma" tattooed on me in the near future.
When most people think of karma its usually something bad and runs along the lines "what comes around goes around" and in the context of A hurt B and now something bad will happen to A. But rarely do you hear about A helped B or A did something nice, so good karma is going to follow them. And I guess that is going to mostly be what this blog is going to be about....
It seems that karma and fate go hand-in-hand, at least my life.
I try to do just one nice thing a day for some random person. Never anything hard to do, but also not something expected (saying bless you when someone sneezes) But something as small as slowing my car down so someone can switch lanes on the road, or taking the time to sit for a minute longer so someone can cross the street. While yes, these seem standard, people don't do them very often. A very common one is allowing someone who has a handful of items in the store to go in front of you, when you have a cart full.
I believe with karma, the biggest thing that people seem to miss, is not to expect anything in return. When you have good karma points, karma decides when you get to cash those points and it may seem completely irrelevant to anything.
Another great example: A couple weeks ago, I had cut my toe nails, the next day I went to a friends house and stubbed my toe...right in the middle of the toe, blood, limping to walk and everything. and while it hurt like no other, if I hadn't cut my nails the night before not only would I have stubbed my toe, I would of had to deal with my nail splitting.
I believe karma saved me from that one. What did I do to get those points? no idea. Why did it choose to cash them in then? who knows.
So back to the focus of this whole thing (which if its not to late...I think I found a better and more suited name) is to focus on the karma points in my life, whether gained or lost, and when it decides to cash in some points. About how I make karma fit into my life and how I fit into it.
"I'm a true believer in karma. You get what you give, whether it's bad or good."
Random acts of kindness would also be a good one...but a bit too cliche.
I try to find the upside to everything. I'm a firm believer of "everything happens for a reason" and while it may take years to figure it out there is a reason.
example: my mom married my dad, in 1992 moved 2000 miles away from family then got divorced in '96, but because of moving out here...my mom met my now step dad and couldn't be happier. It took 14 years for them to get married, but if it hadn't been for my dad's new job and moving out here, she never would have met him. So as much as my mom hates my dad, aside from me and my brother (which I think she's only thankful for on the good days ;) ) it's because of him, she's happy now.
I am also a HUGE believer in karma, I even plan on getting "karma" tattooed on me in the near future.
When most people think of karma its usually something bad and runs along the lines "what comes around goes around" and in the context of A hurt B and now something bad will happen to A. But rarely do you hear about A helped B or A did something nice, so good karma is going to follow them. And I guess that is going to mostly be what this blog is going to be about....
It seems that karma and fate go hand-in-hand, at least my life.
I try to do just one nice thing a day for some random person. Never anything hard to do, but also not something expected (saying bless you when someone sneezes) But something as small as slowing my car down so someone can switch lanes on the road, or taking the time to sit for a minute longer so someone can cross the street. While yes, these seem standard, people don't do them very often. A very common one is allowing someone who has a handful of items in the store to go in front of you, when you have a cart full.
I believe with karma, the biggest thing that people seem to miss, is not to expect anything in return. When you have good karma points, karma decides when you get to cash those points and it may seem completely irrelevant to anything.
Another great example: A couple weeks ago, I had cut my toe nails, the next day I went to a friends house and stubbed my toe...right in the middle of the toe, blood, limping to walk and everything. and while it hurt like no other, if I hadn't cut my nails the night before not only would I have stubbed my toe, I would of had to deal with my nail splitting.
I believe karma saved me from that one. What did I do to get those points? no idea. Why did it choose to cash them in then? who knows.
So back to the focus of this whole thing (which if its not to late...I think I found a better and more suited name) is to focus on the karma points in my life, whether gained or lost, and when it decides to cash in some points. About how I make karma fit into my life and how I fit into it.
"I'm a true believer in karma. You get what you give, whether it's bad or good."
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